Inside this week

• The 20 years I spent trying to be Suzy Super-Mom
• My free summit talk on the gift you might be hiding
• How to start watching all 45 sessions today, plus two gifts from me
• A five-minute Wonder Window to spot your glittering fingerprints

Hey friend,

Maybe you're good at all of it. The schedule, the meals, the doing. And still, somewhere underneath, there's a version of you that feels like too much, or maybe not enough, so you keep your full light dimmed so you don't make anyone uncomfortable.

That was me for roughly four decades, and for almost two of them, it was me with homeschooling. I planned history from every angle, field trips and hands-on everything. Incredible books, fascinating videos. I couldn't just teach it the way it came in the box. I had to make it mine.

And the whole time, a voice in my head kept asking, Why are you doing this? You're making it so much harder. Why can't you just be Suzy Super-Mom who does everything by the book with the calm house and everyone in their seats, instead of running all over town?

Honestly, I was WAY more exhausted trying to be that calm, by-the-book homeschooler than I ever was running around town. Running gave me energy. It gave me life. But at the time, I felt guilty for it.

I didn't know yet that I'm a Seven in the Enneagram. And the way I was living, I swear you'd have believed I was a Two. I certainly did. I spent years training away - praying away! - my natural joy and enthusiasm, fearing it came across as scattered and childish, when it has been the very gift God put in me.

The good Christian woman's biggest struggle isn't hiding her darkness. It's hiding her light.

Your buried gift might look nothing like mine. Maybe it's fierce strength, or steady calm, or a heart so big you learned to aim it only outward. Whatever lit you up before the world called it "too much," it's still in there. Your Enneagram type is the map of how you learned to hide your light. Good Girl Ghosting™ is how you stop. Shadowlight is where they meet.

That's my talk at the Type·ish Spiritual Formation Summit, Why Good Christian Women Hide Their Light (and the Buried Gift Each Type Carries). I walk through the gift each of the nine types tends to bury, the costume we wear over it, and how to start lifting it off. It's free to watch on Friday, October 23.

This one's for you if you've ever prayed your best gift smaller.

The summit runs October 20 to 23, completely virtual and on demand. That's 45 sessions on faith and the Enneagram (18 interviews, 18 workshops, and 9 Story Spotlights) with Suzanne Stabile, Ruth Haley Barton, Dan Allender, Adele Calhoun, Chuck DeGroat, yours truly, and so many more. Registration is free, and each day's sessions stay open for 30 hours.

Want it all, starting today?

The All Access Pass opens every session right now, so you don't have to wait for the 20th or race a 30-hour window. You keep all 45 sessions for life, plus audio for walks and car rides, transcripts, and a workbook with reflection questions for all nine types.

And it comes with bonuses, two of them from me. My Ennea-Joy cards, one card for each type's buried gift. And 50% off Find Her Again, my brand-new five-day Glittering Fingerprints guide.

It's $59 until the summit opens on October 20. Then it goes to $79, and $129 after. I believe in this lineup too much not to tell you, so grab it while it's $59.

Full transparency, I'm a summit affiliate, so when you buy through my link, part of it supports my work. Thank you for that!

JOY NUGGET

We don't have to shine harder. We just have to stop hiding.

YOUR PINKIE-TOE STEP

Let one buried thing out this week, for one minute. Laugh at full volume. Stand a little straighter. Share one true opinion. Wear the thing. Then ask yourself, Am I showing up, or disappearing?

PLAY PROMPT: THE WONDER WINDOW

Grab the back of an envelope. On one side, list what you loved at eight years old. On the other, what you love now. Circle anything that shows up on both. Those are your glittering fingerprints, and your joys point straight at your gift.

Loved that? Find Her Again gives you five days of it. (And it's half off inside the All Access Pass.)

A look into my world this week, and maybe an invitation into yours

I've been out of your inbox for a few weeks because I've been building, and I'm so happy with what came out of it. Find Her Again is finished and live, all 24 pages, and I absolutely love it. Its sister guide, Make Room for You, is live too. And I'm counting down to sharing a summit lineup with teachers I've admired and learned from for years.

Now I'd LOVE a peek into your world. Hit reply and tell me one thing you loved at five years old or eight years old. I read every reply. (For me? Strawberry Shortcake and New Kids on the Block, in that order).

I'll meet you right back here.

Reclaim your JOY,

Rachel

Rachel Harris — the JOY Coach. A New York Times & USA Today Bestselling author & Life Story Strategist who helps women stop ghosting themselves and re-author their second act.

P.S. The All Access Pass is $59 until October 20. If you know you want lifetime access, that's the best price it'll be. Get the All Access Pass here.​